I’m Having Trouble Getting Along

The carnage is everywhere…

How can we go on living?

With so much dying all around us?

Don’t look…

I didn’t mean to.

I tried not to.

But it was right there in front of me before I could turn away.

I saw it and recoiled.

I shook as I cried.

And then my mind broke…

Just for a moment, before terror forced me to put it back together again.

Could I lose my mind because of all this carnage?


But what good will that do?

I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to lose hope.

Lose hope, give up.

I didn’t mean to let you down.

How will I make it to the end of this life, quickly, before I lose my mind for good?

In this race, it is a race now, which will come to me first?

I hope I die before I go mad.

How can I go on living?

With so much dying all around me?

Should I look?

Should I learn to shrug when I see pain?

Or learn to laugh when I witness sorrow?

I’ve seen some who approach it this way.

It’s ugly, but effective.

It beats curling up into a ball of tears,

and melting away.

Or does it?

Pain is commonplace.

Death is everywhere.

But I just can’t seem to get used to it.


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