Change of Format

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May the truth that you follow, bring you abiding peace. 

May the love that you profess, heal you of every disease.

Student Athlete in Need

Another beautiful person damaged by these so-called vaccines. Help us get these things shelved permanently, and get help for people who have been hurt by them.

Sutton Hohensee, 16 yrs old

First Dose of Pfizer on 06/2021

Second Dose of Pfizer in 07/2021

Booster Dose of Pfizer in 01/2022 Lot #330258D


16 yrs old

Q: What was your life like before you got the vaccine?

Honors high school student and varsity tennis player.

Q: Would you like to share your reason(s) for getting the vaccine?

I was thinking of others.

Q: What was your reaction, symptoms, & timeline?

January 2, 2022, I received the Pfizer booster. Didn’t think anything of it, because I received 2 shots in June, July ‘21 and had no side effects except a sore arm.

January 5, ‘22, I began to have a sore throat and thought I might be getting strep. I went and got strep, flu and COVID tested, and they were all negative, but my symptoms kept getting worse.

Monday, January 10, I went to school not feeling well. On the tennis courts was when my body shut down. I was served a ball and in a second, my body wouldn’t “go”. I had a sharp pain in my chest, and my breathing changed. I took my rescue inhaler, thinking it might be my exercise-induced asthma, and finished my match. By the end of the match, I was hyperventilating, had a sharp chest pain and my vision was blurry. My parents came and picked me up, got me home and from there my symptoms spiraled. I was checked for myocarditis and labs were drawn. My Dr. dismissed my symptoms and sent me home. I never went back to school, and new symptoms kept coming. The head pain became unbearable, orthostatic hypotension made my body want to pass out constantly. On January 23, I woke up and could not hold my head up. My mom took me me Texas Children’s. I was admitted under the care of a neurologist. MRI, lumbar puncture, migraine cocktail, labs, 8 rounds of DHE thinking I had a migraine, seeing the eye Dr. in the hospital, possibly getting a blood patch thinking I had a CFS leak. I just wanted to go home, and I did. I left Texas Children’s just the way I went in, nothing changed.

Since then, I have seen 23 different Drs., every MD you can imagine, had numerous blood draws, nerve blocks, myelogram, a second MRI with and without contrast, ketamine. I am refractory to all medications, the list is long, that I have tried for head pain and brain fog. I do have one I take to keep my blood pressure and heart rate under control. I have worked with a virologist and my local Dr., in hopes of some symptom improvement with specialized medication, but nothing has changed. Not one symptom, some are even worse. I am currently in the process of getting approved for IVIG. I have labs showing elevated auto antigens, high VEGF and SCD40L.

I never went back to school after January 10. I finished and graduated with online courses Dec. ‘22. College and work are both on hold. My symptom list is lengthy…chronic, all day 10/10 head pain and it gets worse with any stimulation, awful brain fog, I’m not even sure I can attend college class, malaise, I’m tired before I even get out of bed, orthostatic hypotension, bradycardia, tachycardia, tinnitus, blurriness/my vision cuts out often, dizziness, body temp dis-regulation, vasodilatation, GI issues, neuropathy in hands and feet, my breathing has never been the same since my episode on the tennis court.

I’m not sure what the future holds, my mom is my biggest advocate always researching what’s next, talking to Drs., taking me to appointments. I stay positive, knowing this is happening to me for a greater cause. I want to encourage and help other people through this…you are not alone. Stay strong!

Q: Tell us about any tests, diagnoses, and/or Medical Care received:

Refractory to all migraine medications, also medications to help brain fog, lumbar puncture, 2 different MRIs with and without contrast, myelogram, ketamine infusions for pain, occipital, ganglion and nose nerve blocks, vestibular physical therapy, labs ran by neurologist, oncologist, rheumatologist, endocrinologist, immunologist, cardiologist. All labs come back “normal”. Cytokine labs by virologist, Cunningham panel auto antigen test. I have also tried acupuncture and seen a chiropractor.

Neurologist has my diagnosis as chronic, daily persistent head pain (undiagnosed type) Dysautonomia/POTS, autonomic nervous system disorder, orthostatic hypotension.

Q: Where has your reaction been reported, and what was the response?

CICP, and VAERS no response.

Local Dr., neurologist, urologist, immunologist ongoing patient appointments.

Q: Have you had Covid before?

I had COVID for the first time Feb. ‘23. It was a mild case.

Q: What do you wish others knew?

Vaccine injury is real, be a voice, keep talking about it and searching for answers. Healthcare has not even scratched the surface of how to help us. Keep putting your symptoms in front of them, and eventually there will be research and treatment.

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Our Food is Precious & Needs Defending

This article is hard to swallow. For many of us, our desires are simple, we don’t need great wealth, nor lots of stuff, nor things to impress the neighbors. We simply need clean water to drink, unadulterated vegetables, fruits and meats, and the freedom to seek and have relationship with our God. These simplest things are under attack. Let food be our medicine; but how can we, if it has been genetically manipulated by psychopaths?:

Are Foods Being Turned Into Bioweapons?

Just as medicine is being hijacked by the biotech industry, so is our food supply. President Biden recently signed an executive order that makes biotechnology a key focus of every federal agency, including the U.S. Department of Agriculture.


Dr. Joseph Mercola

Story at a glance:

  • Dr. Peter Lurie, president of the Center for Science in the Public Interest (CSPI), and Beth Ellikidis, vice president of agriculture and environment at the Biotechnology Innovation Organization (BIO), argue for the genetic engineering of food. Both are connected to Bill Gates and other Great Resetters that are pushing to replace all-natural foods with patentable, genetically modified foods.
  • BIO, the world’s largest GMO (genetically modified organism) trade organization, represents more than 1,000 pesticide, pharmaceutical, and biotech companies in more than 30 countries. BIO claims genetic engineering is the solution to heal, fuel and feed the world, and to that end, it lobbies 15 different policy areas, including food, agriculture, and healthcare policy.
  • In 2004, BIO launched BIO Ventures for Global Health (BVGH), a nonprofit organization that “develops and manages programs across the for-profit and non-profit sectors to accelerate research and development for poverty-related diseases.” BVGH was launched with a $1 million start-up grant from the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation.
  • In 2018, the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation spun off a nonprofit subsidiary to the foundation called the Bill & Melinda Gates Medical Research Institute (Gates MRI), which develops biotechnologies to address health problems in poor countries.
  • BIO is partnered with the U.S. Department of Defense (DOD), and the DOD specifically funds and provides technology transfers for the diseases that Gates MRI and BVGH are focused on: malaria, tuberculosis and Ebola.

In an April 17, opinion piece in STAT News, Dr. Peter Lurie and Beth Ellikidis argue for the genetic engineering of food, claiming “newer technologies can make highly targeted changes at the base-pair level — one specific rung on the DNA ladder — enhancing precision and reducing the likelihood of ‘off-target effects’ in which the base pairs are unintentionally added to or deleted from the genome.”

While targeted genetic engineering is indeed possible, and modern technology lowers the likelihood of unintentional additions or deletions, this precision does not guarantee there won’t be adverse effects.

One of the reasons for this is that many genes are multifunctional and can have multiple downstream effects.

By altering a single gene, you can inadvertently affect the expression of hundreds of others. What’s more, the multifunctionality of genes is rarely intuitive.

So, while it may seem convenient to genetically engineer cows without horns to prevent injury to other cows and farmhands, as suggested by Lurie and Ellikidis, there’s no telling what that tweak might do to internal organs or biological pathways.

In turn, there’s no guarantee that cascading effects will not alter the nutrition of the meat or dairy that comes from that cow. Maybe it’ll be fine, maybe it won’t. The problem is that, oftentimes with genetically engineered foods, safety testing is minimal or absent.

Who do Lurie and Ellikidis answer to?

When assessing the trustworthiness of people, it can be worthwhile to look at their funding and various partnerships.

In the case of Lurie and Ellikidis, both are in league with Bill Gates and other “great resetters” that are pushing to replace all-natural foods with patentable, genetically modified foods.

Lurie — a former U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) associate commissioner — is the president of the Center for Science in the Public Interest. In the summer of 2020, Lurie launched a comprehensive campaign to put out of business by sending the FDA and the Federal Trade Commission after us based on bogus charges.

CSPI is funded by the Rockefeller Foundation, the Rockefeller Family Fund, Bloomberg Philanthropies and other billionaire-owned foundations. It’s also partnered with the Cornell Alliance for Science, a “global communications initiative” whose primary funding comes from the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation.

Greg Jaffe, who heads up CSPI’s Biotechnology Project, is also the associate director of legal affairs at Alliance for Science.

Considering those ties, the CSPI’s long history of promoting industry science and propaganda is not surprising in the least. They supported artificial sweeteners, trans fats, GMOs, fake meat and the low-fat myth. They’ve also actively undermined transparency in labeling efforts.

Ellikidis, meanwhile, is the vice president of agriculture and environment at the BIO. She’s leading the “policy and market access strategies for BIO’s Agriculture and Environment section, which includes member companies developing and producing breakthrough technologies in food and agriculture.”

BIO, the world’s largest GMO trade organization, represents more than 1,000 pesticide, pharmaceutical and biotech companies in more than 30 countries, as well as industry groups, academic institutions, state biotechnology centers and other related organizations.

According to BIO, genetic engineering is the solution to heal, fuel and feed the world. To that end, it has lobbying committees dedicated to influencing 15 different policy areas, including food, agriculture, healthcare policy, technology transfer and finance.

According to Open Secrets, BIO spent $13,250,000 on “pharmaceutical and health products” lobbying in 2022. For reference, only Pfizer and the lobbying group Pharmaceutical Research and Manufacturers of America spent more.

How Gates sets himself up for success

In 2004, BIO launched BVGH, a nonprofit organization that “strategically develops and manages programs across the for-profit and non-profit sectors to accelerate research and development (R&D) for poverty-related diseases.”

BVGH was launched with a $1 million start-up grant from the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation.

In 2005, the BVGH received another $5.4 million to expand the biotech industry’s role in the fight against neglected diseases. The Rockefeller Foundation is also funding the group.

Fast-forward to 2018, and the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation spun off a nonprofit subsidiary to the foundation called Gates MRI.

Gates MRI, funded with a $273 million, four-year grant from the Gates Foundation, is focused on developing biotechnologies to address health problems in poor countries.

It’s a convenient setup to say the least.

On the one hand, Gates is funding the R&D of biotech products through Gates MRI, and on the other, he’s funding the acceleration, coordination and management of private-public biotech programs through BVGH.

One key area where the BVGH is being inserted to manage private-public programs is the “Cancer Moonshot” program, launched in 2016 by then-Vice President Joe Biden.

Biden “reignited” and highlighted the program in 2022.

As reported in a White House fact sheet:

“Working with African Access Initiative (AAI) partners, BIO Ventures for Global Health (BVGH) will implement cancer research projects that are determined and led by African oncologists and conducted in collaboration with U.S. cancer experts.

“Through its African Consortium for Cancer Clinical Trials (AC3T) program, BVGH will facilitate five research projects, build capacity to conduct rigorous clinical research at 50 African sites, promote African primary investigator’s research interests on the AC3T platform, and coordinate the implementation of observational clinical studies.

“In addition to building AC3T sites’ research capacity, BVGH will map the regulatory pathway in five AAI countries. All clinical studies involving cancer drugs will include development of market access pathways by BVGH.”

Gates MRI, in turn, intends to “apply new understanding of the human immune system learned from cancer research to prevent infectious disease.”

Conveniently, he’s got the inside track to all of that through the BVGH.

Biowarfare partners

As it so happens, BIO is also partnered with the DOD, and the DOD specifically funds and provides technology transfers for the diseases that Gates MRI and BVGH are focused on: malaria, tuberculosis and Ebola.

Not surprisingly, the DOD is also seeking to develop and adopt more mRNA-based therapeutics against other emerging biological threats — products that can be manufactured and deployed quickly.

One of the obvious hazards of public-private partnerships becoming more and more intertwined, as we see now, is that the government becomes less and less inclined to ensure the safety of these co-developed, co-owned products.

In a June 2022 BIO webinar, Ian Watson, deputy assistant secretary of defense for chemical and biological defense, specified that the agency will “safeguard” its industrial partners from various threats, including “foreign economic aggression and inherent marketplace vulnerability that are specific to biotechnology and biopharmaceuticals.”

Does “market vulnerability” also include legal action by people injured by biopharmaceuticals that have been brought to market at warp speed?

Judging by what we’ve seen during the COVID-19 pandemic, it sure seems the U.S. government is doing everything it can to hide and suppress evidence of harm, so why would we expect any different in the future?

Are foods being turned into bioweapons?

Getting back to the issue of food, just as medicine is being hijacked by the biotech industry, so is our food supply. Indeed, President Biden recently signed an executive order that makes biotechnology a key focus of every federal agency, including the U.S. Department of Agriculture (USDA).

The transhumanist agenda is clear for everyone to see, and it’s being pushed on us from every angle, through food, medicine and national security.

It recently came to light that the swine industry in the U.S. and Canada has been using customizable mRNA “vaccines” on herds since 2018, and to this day, there’s no research to prove the meat is safe for consumption in the long term and won’t affect the genetics of those who eat it.

Based on our experiences with the mRNA COVID-19 shots, which more and more experts are starting to refer to as bioweapons, it’s not farfetched to wonder whether the use of mRNA in livestock might be a form of biowarfare against the public as well, this time through the food supply.

As reported by Dr. Peter McCullough, Chinese researchers have demonstrated that food can indeed be turned into a vaccine (or a bioweapon, depending on the antigen):

“The nation’s food supply can be manipulated by public health agencies to influence population outcomes … Now an oral route of administration is being considered specifically for COVID-19 vaccination using mRNA in cow’s milk.

“Zhang and colleagues have demonstrated that a shortened mRNA code of 675 base pairs could be loaded into phospholipid packets called exosomes derived from milk and then using that same milk, be fed to mice.

“The mice gastrointestinal tract absorbed the exosomes and the mRNA must have made it into the bloodstream and lymphatic tissue because antibodies were produced in fed mice against SARS-CoV-2 Spike protein (receptor binding domain) …

“Given the damage mRNA vaccines have generated in terms of injuries, disabilities, and deaths, these data raise considerable ethical issues. The COVID States project has shown that 25% of Americans were successful in remaining unvaccinated. This group would have strong objections to mRNA in the food supply, particularly if it was done surreptitiously or with minimal labelling/warnings …

“These observations lead me to conclude that mRNA technology has just entered a whole new, much darker phase of development. Expect more research on and resistance to mRNA in our food supply. The Chinese have just taken the first of what will probably be many more dangerous steps for the world.”

Say no to mRNA in your food

Moving forward, it’s going to be extremely important to stay on top of what’s happening to our food supply. Many of us were surprised to realize mRNA shots have been used in swine for several years already.

Soon, cattle may get these customizable mRNA shots as well, which could affect both beef and dairy products.

For now, I strongly recommend avoiding pork products. In addition to the uncertainty surrounding these untested mRNA “vaccines,” pork is also very high in linoleic acid, a harmful omega-6 fat that drives chronic disease.

Hopefully, cattle ranchers will realize the danger this mRNA platform poses to their bottom line and reject it. If they don’t, finding beef and dairy that has not been “gene therapied” could become quite the challenge.

Ultimately, if we want to be free, and if we want food safety and food security, we must focus our efforts on building a decentralized system that connects communities with farmers who grow real food in sustainable ways and distribute that food locally.

Legislative efforts are also needed. Bills that would be helpful in steering us in the right direction include the following:

  • The Processing Revival and Intrastate Meat Exemption (PRIME) Act — This bill was introduced in 2017 and hasn’t moved since its introduction in the House. The PRIME Act would allow farmers to sell meat processed at smaller slaughtering facilities and allow states to set their own meat processing standards.

Because small slaughterhouses do not have an inspector on staff — a requirement that only large facilities can easily fulfill — they’re banned from selling their meat. The PRIME Act would lift this regulation without sacrificing safety, as random USDA inspections could still occur.

  • The Interstate Milk Freedom Act of 2021 — This bill was introduced at the end of July 2021 as an amendment to the 2018 Farm Bill.
  • Missouri House Bill 1169, which would require labeling of products, including food, that might “impact, alter or introduce genetic material or a genetic change” into the consumer.

Originally published by Mercola.


Tread Cautiously

We all want to believe our doctors; what other choice do we have? And we need hope. But we also need truth and honesty. And the truth is that our doctors lied to us, and the whole medical establishment that we want to trust is corrupted, and now preys upon our misfortunes, and profits from them.

Pray for this man, injured by the mRNA vaccines, and for his family who trusted our medical ‘experts’ and are now paying a heavy price for that misplaced trust.

My thought is, go to a naturopathic doctor instead, if at all possible, and avoid hospitals and conventional pharmaceutical interventions that are likely to cause you more injury and more problems than you went in with. Let food be your medicine. And when needed, turn to herbal and traditional time-tested remedies. They may not work, but they also might; and they likely won’t create new problems for you.

Pete Muratore

First Dose of Pfizer on 02/26/2021

Second Dose of Pfizer on 03/19/2021

Long Island, New York

47 yrs old

Told with the help of his wife Kari Maratore

Q: What was your life like before you got the vaccine?

Battled cancer in 2018/19, made a full recovery, and continued to be an independent mobile, active father of two young energetic boys, very positive person and always willing to help anyone in need. Loved to cook, play sports with my children and travel for their hockey and lacrosse games.

Q: Would you like to share your reason(s) for getting the vaccine?

According to doctors, Pete was high risk and needed to be vaccinated!

Q: What was your reaction, symptoms, & timeline?

This is Pete’s story. On February 26, 2021, we never realized that this was the end of life as we knew it. Pete received his first Pfizer vaccination on this date with a follow up on March 19, 2021. Now, I am not going to lie and tell you, Pete was a “healthy” man. He had battled cancer previously, and he was overweight, but other than that he was a healthy individual. He was an independent mobile, active father. Pete would wake up early every morning, jump out of bed, make the kids breakfast, go to work, put in a full day, come home, make dinner, and drive the kids to their various sporting events. This all began to change after his vaccination.

In April, Pete’s foot began to swell. He went to numerous doctors and was told its probably gout. Come to find out, it was not gout. Then doctors thought he needed major back surgery to have steel rods placed in his back, another wrong diagnosis. Months of physical therapy with no progress followed, and Pete’s symptoms began to progress. Slowly, Pete began to start losing feeling in his feet, which progressed up his legs and to his waist. He was no longer able to walk or stand without assistance. Pete ended up having numerous pulmonary embolisms and dvts, which needed emergency surgery to save his life. Now, it is beginning to affect his arms, hands, and other parts of his body.

As soon as the symptoms started to appear, Pete went to the doctor, NOT one doctor but multiple doctors and specialists! We traveled into the city, we spent a month at the Mayo clinic looking for answers, and we spend countless hours in doctors’ offices, searching for that one doctor that may be able to help. We are praying someone would be able to help us.

Pete received various diagnosis; transverse myelitis, inflammation in the spine, CIDP and many doctors had no explanation. They could tell us he had inflammation stemming from his spinal nerves but could not figure out what was causing it. They tried various treatments, nothing was working, and still nothing is working! We are no closer to finding answers.

Pete, always an optimistic, full of life, cheer you on type of guy, is becoming depressed and hopeless. Imagine not being able to do the things you used to do. Imagine worrying that you could fall at any point or have an accident while talking to a business associate or in the middle of a hockey game that your child is playing. Imagine feeling like you are just waiting for this “disease” to just take over your body and kill you. He is becoming despondent, hopeless, and desperate. Almost two years later (3/8/23), we found out that his symptoms are indeed in response to the vaccine that he received. While we are happy to know where this illness originated (deep down we knew, but got validation from the latest doctor appointment), we are devastated to know this could have been prevented.

I am sharing Pete’s story, because it needs to be heard. We are hoping that if more people share their reactions to these shots, that maybe it will help doctors find a cure or at the very least help stop the progression of this “disease”. We are devastated that this is our new journey and one we did not choose, but one we will continue as we have no other choice. We will fight and continue to seek answers, but we also need to tell the truth and let people know what this vaccine did to change Pete’s life forever. Help us help Pete and others who have been forever changed by because of the COVID shots.

Q: Tell us about any tests, diagnoses, and/or Medical Care received:

Numerous MRIs, cat scans, ultrasounds, PET scans, X-rays, spinal taps, lab work, EMGs, hospital stays, infusions, biopsies, and still no answers. Diagnoses: TM, inflammation in spine, CIDP, neuropathy in extremities, spike proteins in spinal fluid, loss of bowel and bladder control, renal cancer, vision worsening, DVT’s and pulmonary embolisms.

Q: Where has your reaction been reported, and what was the response?

Reported to VAERS, attempted national vaccine injury compensation but wasn’t aware of this program until 2 years after vax injury, and there’s a one year time limit

Q: Are there any treatments that have helped or hurt your health?

IVIG, Steroids (oral and IV), numerous cleanses, diet change, eliquis for excessive clotting, ivermectin. Nothing is helping.

Q: What do you wish others knew?

Pete may never be the same again, but we all need to continue to fight for the answers we deserve!

CLICK HERE for Pete’s Fundraiser


Indecision at the Foot of the Cross

When I see you on the cross, Lord Jesus, I am ashamed. I feel convicted in the depths of my being. What sacrifice have I made for others? What would I have done were I in your position; if the powers of this world confronted me? I am not satisfied with myself; I do not accept my response. If I were silent in the face of this world’s anger and depravity, as I very well might be, how could I live with myself after that silence? If I failed to stand for the weak, the righteous, and the truth that is found in You, how then could I stand for anything? If I protected my own personal interests at that terrible moment of decision, and shrank away from advocating for the interests of goodness and mercy, and for what is right in your sight—this would be like planting seeds of ugliness within my own soul, which in time, would grow into something I greatly despise. I think I would grow to hate my very life, which I had saved through my fear for self-preservation. I know that it would be far better for me, to hang with you on the cross, my Lord, than it is to enjoy the fruits of my fears. Yet, I am held captive by my fears; and I am ashamed to admit it.

Jesus, this world is not your friend. You’ve said it yourself; and it is clear that this is true. But I desire to be your friend. Yet, I am both at odds with this world, and with you. My insincerity is the cause of much anguish within me; although my falsehood helps me get along well with others. When one speaks your truth, the power of this world doesn’t like it; it doesn’t want any competition, and it doesn’t want to be exposed as a fraud. So, I haven’t wanted to hurt any feelings; I acquiesce. I tone it down. “Perhaps I’m wrong.” “It all depends on how you look at it.” There’s some truth in their argument. Maybe I don’t have all of the facts. Maybe they aren’t killing babies in the womb; maybe fetuses aren’t people. Maybe they aren’t harvesting organs in China; maybe I got that wrong. Maybe all these drugs really are good for us. And all of the additives they put in our food aren’t making us fat, sick and diseased. Maybe the politicians that are destroying us aren’t as ignorant and arrogant as they appear to be; maybe they really do know what’s best for us. Maybe our doctors aren’t bought off by other interests, and maybe they really do care about our health, and not how to maximize profits.

Jesus, did you question yourself, like I do? “Maybe the Pharisee’s are right, maybe I’m not the son of God?” Maybe I really shouldn’t have eaten that grain on the Sabbath? Perhaps I should tone it down a little? I could have waited a day, and healed some of those folks on Sunday instead of Saturday, what’s the hurry anyway? That might not have pushed so many buttons. Maybe we can have a conference, and iron out all these disagreements; I’m sure it’s just a misunderstanding. I might not have all the facts. Besides, they’re just trying to keep the country together, and look out for the citizens; its tough being a Pharisee, I should lighten up on them. I should be a better neighbor to them; I’m not being a very nice Christian right now…

These are theoretical musings, but when it becomes real, it isn’t so humorous. Lives are in the balance, and there can be a genuine price to pay. You died on a cross. That is not a pleasant death. I am not so enamored by sacrifice when it becomes real; I assert it more readily, and with greater conviction, when I am simply ruminating about it. Our world is changing now, and I’m seeing more people faced with the real choice to either sacrifice themselves in the fight against destructive worldly powers, or to hide in the shadows and hope for the best. I’m not sure what to do; this troubles me. I have spent time planning many escape routes but none seem satisfactory. Neither do I like the prospect of opening my mouth and facing the consequences. But the idea of keeping silent in the face of deception and evil, is intolerable. I’d like to pretend this isn’t real; perhaps I have got the facts wrong. But the walls appear to be closing in on us all, and real choices will have to be made someday in the future. They are already being made by some of us. Will I muster the courage to take up my cross, when my time comes?


Pray For Truth

Please pray with me for this man, and for so many many others like him. And that we all can resist the evils of these ‘medicines’ which are being forced on us, and find good medicines to help those who have been damaged:

James DelloRusso, MD

First Dose of Moderna on 01/12/2021 Lot #037K20A

Second Dose of Moderna on 02/10/2021 Lot #062G20A

Southern California

67 yrs old

Q: What was your life like before you got the vaccine?

I was an active, full time Anesthesiologist. An avid cyclist, I would frequently ride 15-20 miles at times after working a full day; intermittently going to the gym for cardio and weight training; walking and hiking. I enjoyed fly fishing with my daughter and her beau, and traveled regularly. I could read and/or do multiple computer, work or home tasks for hours without issue.

Q: Would you like to share your reason(s) for getting the vaccine?

I have always believed in the value of vaccines. My work site required that all staff get vaccinated against Covid, and I complied, even though there was mounting evidence of problems. I felt that the risk of serious Covid outweighed the risk of the vaccine.

Q: What was your reaction, symptoms, & timeline?

After my first shot (a batch that was considered one of the BAD ones), I had minimal reaction: arm soreness and I felt slightly out of it. After my second jab, however, it was a completely different story. I had been in the middle of an episode of back pain, a recurrent history for me, but I was fully functional, and it did not sideline me at all. Concurrently, the day after the vaccine, I was set to have scalp cancer surgery, and the Dermatologist thought that the recent vaccine dose would pose no problem. For the procedure, I could barely lie still on the reclined chair due to almost unbearable back pain, which I attributed only to my inherent condition. I had a very unfortunate result with the cancer surgery with poor healing, and then the cascade started. Over the subsequent two weeks I developed multiple problems, which are what led me to consider that everything was vaccine related. Not only was my back bad, but multiple other joints became painful also: hands, wrists, knees and hips. Very loud constant bilateral tinnitus (ringing in the ears) began. I realized that the brain fogginess I was experiencing was also related. Then I came to recognize that the malaise I was feeling was not residual from my surgery, but was persistent and worsening. I found that if I exerted myself, physically or mentally, I would become fatigued, and I would need at least a day to recover. I develop POTS on top of everything, although it was variable and intermittent. My pre-existing peripheral neuropathy in my feet also worsened dramatically. About a month or two later I developed double vision.

Currently, despite seeing multiple physicians and trying many different treatments, I am essentially no better, now noting my 2 year “anniversary” this week. After one episode of Covid (I have had 2 since jabbed) I even had a setback with worsening symptoms. I have had to retire from my Anesthesia practice. I can no longer ride my bicycle due to my cognitive problems, slowed processing and fatigue. The most I can physically do is walk about a block or two in order to avoid the post-exertional malaise. If I work (small chores) or exert myself or concentrate too long I become exhausted. The cognitive issues are constant and variable, as is the fatigue, and I am quite limited as to what I can do on a given day. I try to stay positive, but as you all know, at times this is very difficult.

Q: Tell us about any tests, diagnoses, and/or Medical Care received:

Essentially most studies were normal, including an MRI of the brain. Nerve conduction showed severe peripheral neuropathy with small fiber demyelination. Sleep study revealed mild OSA. While basic neurologic exams were normal, my 4 hour neuropychologic assessment showed clear cognitive decreases after 2-3 hours. I have been seen by neurologist(s), cardiologist(s)(pacemaker implanted), ophthalmologists including a neuro-ophthalmologist (ocular nerve palsy likely due to local vascular problem). Also being seen in a university Covid Recovery Clinic (nothing new to offer), and currently we are ‘watching’ my new lambda light chain gamma globulinopathy (blood disorder) hoping it doesn’t morph into myeloma.

My main diagnoses are myalgic encephalomyelopathy/chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS). I have also been having diffuse muscle pains (myalgias). Some of my doctors diagnose post-covid syndrome (long-covid), and some acknowledge the possibility of post-vaccine injury. Apparently there is no medical code for the vaccine injury, so they do not get paid unless the diagnosis is accompanied by an accepted ICD10 code.

Q: Where has your reaction been reported, and what was the response?

I personally entered my condition into the VAERs database. I have heard no reply whatsoever.

Q: Are there any treatments that have helped or hurt your health?

I have been prescribed multiple medications and supplements and I do not feel that anything has really helped me. I have also been following FLCCC protocols, and have taken ivermectin without improvement.

Recently I have started with red light treatments. I believe the red light is helping my neuropathy, while the near infrared will likely require more therapies to help the the brain fog. I plan to start taking methylene blue.

Honestly, it gets quite tiresome to continue to try so many different therapies, but I guess there is no alternative.

Q: Have you had Covid before?

I had the covid infection twice after my ‘vaccination’. In March I got pretty sick on a Thursday, started FLCCC meds, yet was concerned about waiting over the weekend in light of my asthma history. I found a private medical service to prescribe and administer the monoclonal antibody, which helped me turn the corner and I recovered thereafter. In October I again got infected after returning from Europe, followed FLCCC protocol, and got well quickly.

Q: What do you wish others knew?

I wish that more people could become aware of the evil that has been forced upon us all, here in the USA and globally. I wish the main stream media and tech were not able to censor so much good, helpful information and truth about Covid and the vaccine.

As a physician I am ashamed of what the house of medicine- organized medicine- has been a party to in promoting and delivering this toxic spike protein. This must be stopped!


“Love” in the Time of Covid

It was an age of fear, when mistrust eroded the foundations of our faith. When we misplaced our trust with the faithless, and entrusted our hopes to those who have no hope. We took our council from snakes, who spoke comforting words to assure us of safety and who lulled us into complacency.

They whipped us up into a frenzy of fear, and a whirlwind of anxieties blew open the doors to our sacred spaces—the very doors that wisdom built eons ago, to protect us from the deceits of this world, and from the jaws of that roaming lion, who is always on the prowl seeking to devour us.

Then, masked invaders poured in through this breach, and despoiled the beauty of our sanctuary. These invisible foes whispered sweet deceits into our eager ears and we made ourselves into their image—we covered our own faces in fear, which relieved us of our anxieties, for the moment, and we were grateful for this strange new wisdom.

We willingly forfeited the noble beauty of our uncovered faces—which, from the beginning of time have reflected the image and beauty of our God and creator. Now, we masked our faces, concealing that divine glory and hiding each of us, one from the other. We formed a new alliance then, right there before the altar of our Lord; and we erected an idol to public safety.

It was a time of broken community, when we served two masters.


Light for the Disenfranchised

I gaze within myself and discover that I live in a state of confusion and disorientation much of the time; spending my days perceiving the world in ways that are incompatible with what I’m told by others is true. As if either my perception of reality is a lie, or the world in which I find myself is a lie. And when I look around, at my fellow citizens, my brothers and sisters in this life, it appears to me that many of you feel the same way that I do. How has this dire state of affairs happened to us? We are living disenfranchised from ourselves, grasping at superficial identities in hopes of finding ourselves again; hoping to reclaim ourselves, and to assert to the world and to ourselves, that we do in fact exist, and that we know who we are.

But increasingly we don’t know who we are; it certainly doesn’t appear that we do. And I don’t think this is an accident. And we have greater and greater difficulty discerning what is true. Again, I don’t think this is accidental. This is a catastrophe, and it is intentional. We are like lost sheep without a shepherd; and we have become—we allow ourselves to be—easy prey for deception and destruction. Truth was originally given to us as a relationship, by our Creator, for the salvation of our souls. Truth shed light on many things—on everything—and showed us true relationships: between ourselves and each other, ourselves and God, and with the world in which we belong—and what is true about ourselves internally. Truth is intimate, personal and relational; truth is not merely relative. Truth isn’t facts, or evidence or data, and it isn’t the domain of ‘experts’. Truth is implanted in every human heart, and is still available for everyone with the eyes to see, the ears to hear, and with a heart that is still soft and malleable to it.

We live in a nihilistic age in which nothing matters, everything is trivial, and no thought or action has significance. Oh, what a lie! Though, I suspect we have accepted this more than we realize—action without consequence, position without accountability, life without value. This is how we rule ourselves, and each other.  Nothing is taken too seriously: wars are started without concern for the lives of those affected, babies are murdered because of the inconvenience of them, and power the world over takes whatever it can from the powerless. We inflict untold pain on each other without giving much thought about it. This is certainly a catastrophe, but it is too profound for me, so I only want to talk about one aspect of our problem: the truth, deception, and our struggle to become sensitive to truth again.

After we collectively turned away from Truth as relationship, we embraced it as evidence, data, and facts and figures. At least this is how it appears to me. We gave up Truth as an intimate experience, and instead it became remote and separate from us. We were deceived to believe that truth no longer resides within us, but is rather the purview of others. Only if we study long enough are we able, maybe, to learn what is true; but only if the best people, the most qualified people are the ones who give it to us. What a lie! But how could we recognize it as such? Since we have turned our backs on the intimate knowing of Truth within our very being. Naively or knowingly we delegated authority over ‘truth’ to others; perhaps it was out of laziness, I don’t know. Regardless of the reasons why, we have done it and we are reaping the fruits of that now.

Years ago I remember reading a lengthy article about the litigation surrounding the cigarette industry, when claims were made against it. A great deal of money was at stake in the lawsuit and both sides brought numerous ‘expert’ witnesses to argue the facts of the case. Reams of research data were made available about the effects of smoking on public health, and arguments were made for and against the culpability of the industry. Apparently, from that exercise, what was discovered was that if the defense could flood the court with enough competing data to completely confuse the listeners, then it would be very difficult to lose the case. They sought to create an environment of reasonable doubt. There was very clear information that implicated the industry however, because they were able to thoroughly confuse everyone with additional data and their own deceptive interpretations of the data, they were able to escape the lawsuit with limited damage.

Since that time, it seems that nearly every industry, or individual, with money to gain and something to lose, have perfected this activity; so that data and evidence can be expertly made to serve their private interests by thoroughly confusing people. We want the truth from information and experts, but we often only get lies. We need to stop putting our faith in these ‘truths’ because they have become thoroughly corrupted and are not trustworthy.

Adding to our confusion, and amplifying it, is the very technology that we use to gather all of this spurious information. Have you noticed what happens to you after you spend time looking at a computer screen or your mobile phone? There are many studies out there about the negative effects these things have on our attention span and concentration. But apart from any external study; what have you noticed about this yourself? Your own perception is the most important tool that you have for understanding what is happening to you. You don’t need those studies, at least not as your primary source for gathering important and meaningful guidance; if anything those other sources can be used in support of what you personally discover by virtue of your own close inspection and exploration.

I will share what I have discovered through my use of computers and mobile devices.  I won’t go into all of my discoveries, but only the one that most relates to this topic. Apart from a headache, I feel a change in my psyche, and this is the vital disruption that these technologies are having on us, I believe. My ability to think clearly and efficiently is reduced. In the areas of my brain, beginning in the frontal lobe, and then descending behind the eyes and continuing back down towards the spine, including the area of the thalamus and hypothalamus, and the pineal gland, it feels as though everything goes numb and is electrically impinged, or paralyzed. I experience this also as a feeling of being dazed and unable to think normally. But more importantly, I think, is a dissipation in my ability to pray and to experience what I would call spiritual insights. It is as though my time on the computer or mobile device closes the door on my connection with God. I find that extremely interesting and poignant; and very much to the point that I believe all of this is intentional and intended to sever our connection with original Truth. So that we can’t see it, or understand it, but rather we become lost in a dull senselessness.

As a brief aside, but one which I also find interesting and relates to my experience. A friend told me recently about research that was done in the 1930’s with LED light to inhibit the functioning of the pineal gland. The idea was to use it as a weapon of sorts, in order to hopefully impede mental functioning. Apparently they were successful in slowing cognitive ability at least temporarily. I can imagine that this research wasn’t abandoned; but I expect that it was continued and expanded to the present day. Who knows what and how effectively this is now being used against us. It certainly explains a lot.

What might one do in response to this technological problem? Get rid of our computers and cell phones? I wish that could be done! But we also now must acknowledge our addiction to these things. Also, I suspect this addictiveness is an intentional aspect of our problem. But short of throwing them in the garbage, I have one other thing to share, which has helped me with the symptoms of technology exposure, and may benefit you in your own discovery.

By a stroke of good fortune, or Godly provision, next to my computer is my prayer nook where I keep three oil lamps. When they are lit, the golden light emanating from the lamps is soothing to my eyes. A while ago I began experimenting with this and I’ve found that looking at the candlelight helps break down the paralysis in my psyche which occurs after prolonged time looking at a screen. The longer I spend gazing into this golden light the better my mental abilities return, and I feel renewed activity in areas of my brain that I previously was unable to get firing. I now keep candlelight burning whenever I work on my computer, and I take regular breaks to look at the light, in order to help mitigate the damage that I experience from the screen. Sunlight works in the same way, if I am outside and looking at my cell phone.

If warm light is unavailable to you, I have found another tool that is also very effective, though I can’t say why it works. It is a visualization technique that imagines golden light filling my brain. I close my eyes and imagine as best I can an intense golden light, like the sun, filling various areas of my brain; left hemisphere, then right, and back and forth, trying to make connections between them, and then bringing the light into my frontal cortex, temporal lobes, back into the core, and down the spine etc. The greater concentration you can give this, to increase the intensity of the light the better the results, I’ve found. It may likely be a struggle at first to direct your attention and concentration in order to break up the numbness that has taken you, but it will finally change and dissipate with consistent and applied effort. And the result is a functioning psyche which is worth the time and effort.

Perhaps this seems strange to you? Why bother? Well, as I’ve said already, since we live in a nihilistic age, it is no wonder we might not think any of this really matters; or that there is anything we can do about it, since we’ve been disenfranchised from ourselves by ‘experts’ and by deceptions on a global scale. But the Truth is that this does matter because we matter. You matter; and your ability to think and to perceive clearly is of great importance.  The ability to discover and know Truth relationally, and to know yourself, is a strong tower of protection in this world of deceit which seeks to devour us, and more importantly our receptivity to Truth is the beginning of our salvation; and this is the most important thing, no matter what anybody else tells you! I hope you will discover this Truth for yourself.


A Tragic Disconnect

I mainly write about matters of the heart and of our spiritual lives. Although this that I’m sharing now, is about human health, I believe it is integral to the life of the spirit. It is representative of a greater struggle between goodness and evil.

Those who we’ve historically trusted to look out for our welfare, have now become predators of the innocent and the trusting; those who should be helping us, appear only to be looking out for their own selfish interests, and children are suffering and dying because of them. These aren’t our grandparents’ health authorities, these are criminals; be warned and on your guard!

While last month the CDC added Covid Vaccines to their list of recommended vaccines for children, children like Gracelyn Reader, age 16, are suffering all of the following issues because of these Covid shots: Pulmonary Embolism, Stroke, Seizures, Thrombectomy, Thoracotomy.

Please read her story here, and if you have time, email her some words of encouragement. Her email is included in this link:

Real people, real injuries. The truth will set us free. And love will cover a multitude of sins. Let’s all face these truths together, and start helping each other; especially our neighbor’s who have been hurt, killed or simply cast to the side because of greedy special interests.


A Reflection on 2019 – The Present.

We have passed these last three years amazed, and struck dumb, stunned and befuddled by everything that has happened to us; by all that was done to us. Alienated, isolated, divided and demoralized on a scale that was momentous, we were collectively struck when we weren’t looking, and knocked out before we knew what hit us. And when we got to our feet again, we found ourselves in a battle. We discovered we were at war, inexplicably, against ourselves—brothers against sisters, mothers against sons. Loved ones turned against loved ones, life-long relationships crumbling to dust, and families were set on fire. Love gave way to fear. Truth gave way to lies. Hope gave way to despair. And suspicions arose everywhere.

Distrust and mistrust grew between neighbors where previously healthy acceptance had held us together. Persuasion gave way to coercion, and power was exerted over the weak. Instead of listening and working together against a common enemy, we made each other our enemy; we fought only for ourselves, our tribe against new enemies—former friends and family members. We were thrust, or thrust ourselves, into a deep darkness of fear, and were blinded by it; flailing against one another.

We have been at war now, for three years (perhaps longer), but we are fighting against the wrong enemies. We have turned against our own flesh and blood. But we are deluded because we needn’t fight against flesh and blood; we should be fighting against subtler enemies that are the foundation of our misery. Our battle is really against the very things that have been destroying us these past few years; a virus is our enemy, not those who carry the virus. It is a physical virus and a metaphorical one as well. It is a physical pathogen and a spiritual one too; it is Covid, but it is also very truly the corrosive fear that is eating us away as a people. Division is our enemy, alienation and isolation is our enemy. Coercion and the abuse of power is our enemy. Greed and envy is our enemy. All of these are the true enemies we should have been fighting during this pandemic, and against which we should mount a new offensive now.

Stop fighting man against woman, black against white, blue against red, and vice versa…

Fight for goodness by being good, fight for unity by forgiving, fight for trust by being honest, and fight for reconciliation by your humility. Fight for the human spirit that is in every person, and for the soul that lives in each of us. We need to fight together to regain our nobility as a people, to remember that truth about ourselves—we have a nobility by virtue of being made, and we need to fight for the divinity that resides within our human nature. Fight against dehumanization, against pure materialism, against nihilism and the anti-Godliness of a wholly secular vision. Fight against the subtle powers that try to convince us that we are only beasts, simply animals, and not worth fighting for.

I am only now starting to come to my senses again, after three years of feeling shell-shocked and bewildered. The pain and horror of our collective pandemic misery is only beginning to come into focus for me. We have lost so much; there are so many casualties and so much destruction. But there is hope. We have been down, but not out. There is very much to fight for still, and to rebuild. We can rebuild the spirit of love within our families, between siblings, and re-form old friendships, rekindle love between us, between races, between political opponents. We can rebuild unity, turning away from division, rejecting coercion and saying no to alienation; we can build community in the midst of opposing ideas.

The power behind all of the evils which have beleaguered us is very real, and it won’t go away easily or without a struggle; especially now that it has enjoyed so many victories of late—we are so divided and estranged from one another. Power loves power more than people. I have been in hiding of sorts, to protect myself. I want to live in a place free from all this treachery; just hoping that it will all go away. But it appears that evil is growing and expanding. What hope is there against the fear and hatred which seems to be devouring our world? It makes me cry because I just want to live. Don’t we all just want to live; and not to be used, or abused, fooled or crushed? Power loves power, and devours mankind. But I take solace knowing Jesus Christ; because Jesus embodies all the meekness that devours power, and in Him I find peace to live, courage to face fear, and endurance to overcome hatred.